Heartbroken

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You and me long ago. I know it was long ago but I sometimes feel the thorn you planted in my heart. The thorn that reminds me you were my first love. My first love that broke my heart. I know we weren`t meant to be but I have never forgotten about you.

Don`t think I haven`t moved on. I did long ago. It was half a lifetime ago we were together and I almost don`t think about you anymore. Only sometimes when I get reminded of you. I`ve been in love many times after I had you and I never thought about you then. I`ve found love and never compared them to you.

I think about you when I feel sad. Sadness and heartbreak are the same to me. The feeling that you never will feel joy again is the same with sadness and heartbreak. I never thought I would find anyone after you but I did. I did and I was in love.

I never cry because of you anymore. I did that a long time ago. I hid my tears from everyone but I cried all the time. I cried because my heart was in pieces. I never thought my tears would end.

You will never know this. I won`t let you even think you`re in my thoughts.

Ancient

I remember when I grew up. Everything was easier. Gather around and I will tell you about ancient history. Haha not quite but almost.

We didn`t have cell phones when I grew up. That has to be the biggest difference to now. Today no one could live without it. When I was young you had to actually interract with people. You used your phone to call people! We never texted each other or played games on it. I don`t know how we made it without cell phones. As teenagers we were out all the time and partied on weekends. Sometimes you were going to a party and were supposed to meet your friends at a certain place. If you knew you couldn`t make it in time there was no one to call because they were all waiting at the meeting place. If you were a naughty girl that wasn`t coming home after a party in town you had to find a pay phone to call home. I don`t know how many times I spend the end of the night looking for a phone to call my mom (haha most of the time we went to an after party but we never said that) . When you found a phone you had to have coins to put in it. I always said I was going to spend the night at a friend who lived alone.

In Sweden back in the days we used to serve tinned pears as dessert. Not only pears but oven baked with a thin mint chocolate piece on top. The chocolate (After eight) was something you only ate at special occasions such as dinner parties. We also ate lots of homemade pizza`s with ketchup on them. My favorite food used to be boiled artichoke dipped in butter.

In school we didn`t have computer science. We had type writing classes. Most of the type writers were manual ones where you had to use force to be able to push down the keys. You had to fight to get the electric machines which were easier to use. Then we had to write these stupid texts which didn`t mean anything.

Speaking of cell phones. I remember when they became an household item. I said I would never get one. Being available all the time!

 

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You couldn`t pick your own candy back then. You had to say to the sales person what candy to put in the paper bag.