Fish

I love fish however I don’t eat it often. You almost have to have sauce with fish. Fish itself doesn’t taste that good it’s the sauce that does everything. It’s the sauce that keeps me from making fish dinners. I don’t know how to make fish sauce. There are ready made ones but I don’t enjoy them. I’ve tried to do make sauces but didn’t succeed.

In Sweden we have fish bolls. That’s what we call them! It’s minced fish shaped into balls. I don’t know what else you could call them. Fish balls doesn’t sound better. Anyway I feel satisfied with naming them fish bolls.

Swedish fish bolls come in tins with different sauces. The sauces are delicious. I couldn’t make them better myself. I don’t know if you can get them anywhere else than here but if you can try them. Today we had fish bolls in lobster sauce. I cook them in the oven. I put them and butter in a oven safe baking dish. I like to serve oven baked potatoes with the fish. I slice the potatoes and mix them with butter, salt and pepper in a separate baking dish. I added sugar pea snaps to the fish. I cook it all in the oven. 200 C 30 minutes.

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Eggs

Quick little dinner idea.

I love scrambled eggs. I make it often. My favorite scrambled eggs are mixed with tomatoes. I cut the tomatoes and fry them in butter for a while. I add the eggs and stir until it gets scrambled.

I often also serve the scrambled eggs with butter fried rye bread.

It doesn’t look tasty however it is delicious.

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Bread

I know most countries have national food. Something that tells you about the “basics” in what that country prefers when it comes to food. That is often a variety of food but there usually is something that most consider the best representation for their country. In Sweden the most typical dish is  smörgåsbord or smorgasbord. A table full of lots of food. Everything from meatballs to pickled herring. We often eat this on holidays but there’s nothing stopping us from doing it whenever we want.

In Sweden we like to put our favorite smorgasbord dishes on bread. It’s a sandwich cake. It’s mayonaise filling between thin bread slices. The filling often consists of (of course) mayonaise and ham or seafood. This sandwich cake we had today was a ham cake. There were prawns as well but just on the first layer.

I have planned to make a sandwich cake but it’s a bit much to do. There are ready made bread but all the filling and layers to fill is nothing I want to do. I would have to buy more mayonaise than I ever have. I would have gone crazy making the cake.

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Subway

This is not sponsored.

Review of Subway and their tuna sandwich.

Almost everyone knows what Subway is. For you that don’t it’s a restaurant that focuses on sandwiches, or subs. They have a number of sandwiches to choose from. They make the sandwiches for order.

I liked their tuna sandwich. I had it when I went there yesterday. It contains of (of course) tuna and the veggies and sauce you want. I added cheese to it as well. The veggies I picked was tomatoes, salad and onions. I thought mayo would complement the tuna and it did. It was yummy.

I like that Subway has two sizes of their sandwiches. The smaller ones are often fulfilling but if you’re hungry there’s a bigger sandwich.

 

 

 

Crying

I feel more depressed than I have in a while. I have felt more and more stressed. I’ve had lots to do. I know my depression gets hysterical when I don’t get to calm down. I have a rule I normally don’t overstep. I try to not have more to do than I remember without writing it down. A “bit” confusing explanation.

I mean I never plan more than I remember without using a planner. A more confusing explanation but you know what I mean. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted lots to do. When I’ve been stressed for a long while I get light headed. I get that feeling I want to cry. The medicines I have make me not able to cry but I feel the sadness. If I would try to explain my depression and stress I would compare it to the feeling you get before you cry.

I haven’t had to use a planner to remember what to do but I’ve had more to do than I want to. I’ve had to cancel many projects ahead cause I don’t want to crash into a full blown depression. Nothing beats feeling the best possible. Nothing. No one can do everything.

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Candy. The best stress release.

 

 

Bio oil

I think you often forget to take care of your body when it comes to skincare. You put body lotion on your legs and arms and that’s about that. I never cared more than that about the skin on my body when I was younger. I never used a good quality body lotion.

Many years ago I was on an anti depressant that made me put on one more me. I have never been over weight before but then I put on a massive amount of weight. I ate normal portions but the weight kept adding on. I decided to not take the medicine anymore. The weight vanished immediately. With that the skin on my body became saggy. I didn’t have hanging skin but it wasn’t firm. When I was bigger my skin was smooth and when I got to my normal size my skin aged. I knew I had to do more than use an average body lotion.

I began applying Bio oil before my body lotion. I put it all over my body. It’s not that greasy and the skin absorbs it quickly. I can’t tell you it has made the skin perfect but it looks better. I feel my upper body is firmer. You got to use the oil for a while to get the anti ageing benefits. I used it on my face years ago but I thought it was a bit oily. To me it fits my body better. I don’t give it top mark however it helps the skin.

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Dog hair

True happiness! You find a long hair on your body and it’s only dog hair.

I didn’t have wine to congratulate me. Candy is more than better.

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Hair oil

Before anything the picture is a “bit” unfocused. I don’t know about you but I often don’t find the haircare I want. I love essential oils in haircare cause they can make any hair type better. I never find any hair care with the essential oils I want. When I find products with oils it doesn’t feel good. For example I used nettle haircare but that made my hair into a big tangle.

A while ago I began mixing hair products with essential oils myself. I couldn’t have made a better choice. There are oils for everything. I have oily hair and tea tree oil normalizes that. I use it in the shampoo but not conditioner. It’s oil and it can make the hair greasy if you use it in everything. I find lemon oil the best in skincare.

I don’t mix oil with shampoo in the shampoo bottle. Then you don’t know how much oil to put in. I mix shampoo and oil in a coffee cup instead. I do it with every use. I don’t use that much oil. It can harm your hair if you put lots of oil on it.

I buy essential oils from Organic makers.

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Relax

I know many depressed don’t wanna do anything. I’m that way. I’ve had days where I haven’t done anything. When I was diagnosed with depression I didn’t go out. I couldn’t take care of myself. I don’t know how I got through it but I did. My mom helped me and without her I think I wouldn’t be here now.

Kajsa is a crazy dog. That craziness gets me through the deepest depression. Everyone has to have a reason to carry on. I never thought a crazy parson jack russell could make me calm. I sometimes want a uncrazy dog but not often.

I know she isn’t but I find that Kajsa is my service dog. She wouldn’t be classified as a service dog however to me she is. She makes me safer. I often get anxiety in public and Kajsa calms me. I wouldn’t do anything more than work if it wasn’t for her.

Today Kajsa and me went to a park. She loves everything about that park. I would never visit it without her. I get worried. Kajsa makes me wanna be there.

I know not everyone want animals however they can make everything smoother. They want you the way you are.

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Invisible hair

I told you about my face wax. The wax that made my skin burn. Happy memories. This time it’s body hair bleach.

This was long ago. It was my first time as an au pair in London. I thought bleaching my leg hair would make it invisible. It was long ago and then hair removal products were almost harmful. I decided to do it when the kid I was watching had an afternoon rest. I often had him sleep longer then than the mom had said he would. I was a young girl and had to have that time to myself. The parents were not home and cause of that I thought the living room was the right place to do it. I mixed the bleaching powder with everything in the box it came with. There was powder everywhere. I put it on my legs and had time to myself.

I sat with the bleach without trousers on……..and the front door slowly opened. It was the father. He came home early. There I was without trousers. Bleach on my legs. Bleaching powder everywhere. And the kid was sleeping when he shouldn’t be sleeping. I put my trousers on before the father saw me. The bleach was burning. I don’t know how but I also got the powder off the furniture. I said we had to buy groceries and he went to the store.

The bleach had to be rinsed off. I had to it fast and I did. My leg hair wasn’t bleached and all I got was rashes. I got countless spots. Don’t do body hair removal without time to do it.

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Wax strips. I had no bleaching powder.