Dog hair

True happiness! You find a long hair on your body and it’s only dog hair.

I didn’t have wine to congratulate me. Candy is more than better.

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Hair oil

Before anything the picture is a “bit” unfocused. I don’t know about you but I often don’t find the haircare I want. I love essential oils in haircare cause they can make any hair type better. I never find any hair care with the essential oils I want. When I find products with oils it doesn’t feel good. For example I used nettle haircare but that made my hair into a big tangle.

A while ago I began mixing hair products with essential oils myself. I couldn’t have made a better choice. There are oils for everything. I have oily hair and tea tree oil normalizes that. I use it in the shampoo but not conditioner. It’s oil and it can make the hair greasy if you use it in everything. I find lemon oil the best in skincare.

I don’t mix oil with shampoo in the shampoo bottle. Then you don’t know how much oil to put in. I mix shampoo and oil in a coffee cup instead. I do it with every use. I don’t use that much oil. It can harm your hair if you put lots of oil on it.

I buy essential oils from Organic makers.

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Relax

I know many depressed don’t wanna do anything. I’m that way. I’ve had days where I haven’t done anything. When I was diagnosed with depression I didn’t go out. I couldn’t take care of myself. I don’t know how I got through it but I did. My mom helped me and without her I think I wouldn’t be here now.

Kajsa is a crazy dog. That craziness gets me through the deepest depression. Everyone has to have a reason to carry on. I never thought a crazy parson jack russell could make me calm. I sometimes want a uncrazy dog but not often.

I know she isn’t but I find that Kajsa is my service dog. She wouldn’t be classified as a service dog however to me she is. She makes me safer. I often get anxiety in public and Kajsa calms me. I wouldn’t do anything more than work if it wasn’t for her.

Today Kajsa and me went to a park. She loves everything about that park. I would never visit it without her. I get worried. Kajsa makes me wanna be there.

I know not everyone want animals however they can make everything smoother. They want you the way you are.

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Invisible hair

I told you about my face wax. The wax that made my skin burn. Happy memories. This time it’s body hair bleach.

This was long ago. It was my first time as an au pair in London. I thought bleaching my leg hair would make it invisible. It was long ago and then hair removal products were almost harmful. I decided to do it when the kid I was watching had an afternoon rest. I often had him sleep longer then than the mom had said he would. I was a young girl and had to have that time to myself. The parents were not home and cause of that I thought the living room was the right place to do it. I mixed the bleaching powder with everything in the box it came with. There was powder everywhere. I put it on my legs and had time to myself.

I sat with the bleach without trousers on……..and the front door slowly opened. It was the father. He came home early. There I was without trousers. Bleach on my legs. Bleaching powder everywhere. And the kid was sleeping when he shouldn’t be sleeping. I put my trousers on before the father saw me. The bleach was burning. I don’t know how but I also got the powder off the furniture. I said we had to buy groceries and he went to the store.

The bleach had to be rinsed off. I had to it fast and I did. My leg hair wasn’t bleached and all I got was rashes. I got countless spots. Don’t do body hair removal without time to do it.

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Wax strips. I had no bleaching powder.

Pasta

I know I’m addicted to carbs. I get carb cravings often. I could go without most food ingredients but not carbs. Pasta is my biggest addiction. On lazy days I eat just pasta to dinner. On more normal days I make some effort. Then I put some salt and pepper on the pasta.

Today I made pasta bolognese. I feel proud I made a whole dinner for once. I find bolognese sauce with minced beef wonderful. I don’t eat meat often however minced beef is my favorite kind of meat. I fried the minced beef with onions. I added cabbage and peppers. I added the vegetables cause I wanted more substance. I know that’s not what you normally put in a bolognese but I longed for these vegetables. After a while I added tomatoes, salt, pepper, cream and milk. I served it with my favorite pasta.

The dinner suggestion of the day pasta bolognese.

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It tasted lots better than it seems.

 

 

Waxing

Never wax anywhere near the face when people are about to visit. I made that mistake a while ago. I have waxed my face before. And I’ve used the same brand all the times I’ve waxed.

We were about to get a visit from a big group of friends. I thought my upper lip was more than hairy at the time. Waxing is the most effective method when it comes to eliminate hair. It takes the hair away and leaves you without it longer than most hair removal methods. I find that wax strips are better to use on the face cause they’re not as hard on the skin as warm wax is. Rather I used to find strips better until this hair removal.

I decided to wax just days before the visit. I’ve used wax strips before and didn’t get any bad skin reaction. I haven’t got a clue why I decided to do it then. I could have done it long before this but didn’t. I waxed like I always do but the hair didn’t come off.

I used strip after strip and nothing happened. My skin felt damaged but I kept waxing. After a while my skin felt like it was on fire. I had to leave it. No hair was removed and my skin was hurting.

The friends came and it wasn’t my best visit. I had tried to remove the face hair but there I was hairy and with burn marks. My skin was completely damaged. Hair removal isn’t anything you want to discuss at a dinner but I had to. I couldn’t pretend nothing was wrong when my skin was on fire.

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Baked asparagus

I love almost all vegetables. I think the best way to cook them is in the oven. You get the unbeatable taste. I feel you keep the nutrients more than when you use the stove. I’m not one that enjoys being stressed. Oven dinners are the best cause you often only have to put everything in a tin. It cooks “itself”. The stove craves more effort.

Asparagus is a versatile vegetable. It’s easy to cook. I don’t find raw asparagus tasty but cooked it’s almost my favorite vegetable. Bacon wrapped asparagus is one of the tastiest ways to cook this ingredient. This time I didn’t boil the asparagus in advance but I should. They take time to cook and the bacon gets cooked in no time. I couldn’t leave it in the oven long because I didn’t want the bacon to get burnt. It was more than tasty but it would have tasted delicious with a pre cooked asparagus.

I wrapped the asparagus with bacon. I put them in a oven tin. I also put french fries in the oven. French fries are perfect to this. I cooked it at 190 C for 30 minutes. Try it.

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Happy

I sometimes feel almost happy. Skincare makes me feel good. It’s not a cure to illnesses however it makes everything better. I’ve always loved to take care of myself and have spent more than I should on it. My mom is into skincare and I must have gotten it from her. I love to buy skin products. I spend a lot on it but I don’t care. It’s my money!

My favorite skincare products are face creams. I usually don’t buy the most expensive creams although I have from time to time. The more expensive face products are often not better than the normal priced creams.

There’s something I can’t help doing with skincare. I expect it to work at once. I don’t know how many creams I’ve decided didn’t do it for me after one use. Wrinkles take time to erase and only one time with a moisturiser doesn’t help. There’s no moisturiser that remove all wrinkles but it can smooth them out.

Many creams take a long time to do their job. I know that however I want them to work the second I put them on.

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Surrender

I have been depressed for a long time. At first I didn’t know I was depressed. I knew but cause I had felt sad for a long time my sadness had become a normal state of mind. I cried everyday and I felt trapped. Everything I had enjoyed doing I didn’t do anymore. I never laughed.

I knew about depression but because my normal state of sadness was…….normal I didn’t think about it that way. Someone had to tell me I was ill. Realizing how ill I was I broke down. I cried my eyes out. I surrendered and felt how helpless I was.

The hardest aspect of surrender was that the doctor I had said I couldn’t work. I don’t know if reporting sick is the right phrase but she wrote a note and she said I should give it to my boss. I often think about everyone else but me. I could take the depression but not that it would involve my co workers. I remember that day. I went to a co worker and told her. She helped me with everything.

I struggled a long time with the feeling I had let people down because I couldn’t work. Don’t be afraid to get help when you suffer from any illness. Often it is easier to admit to yourself how you feel than to everyone else. Put yourself first.

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Pickled herring

I think every country has “national” food that makes many wonder why they eat it. Food that the rest of the world wouldn’t eat even if they were paid to do it. For example I don’t get why some countries insists on eating haggis. I know that it comes from an era where you ate everything on animals but now a days it’s crazy. I don’t think it’s wrong to eat it but it’s not something I crave. Sweden has pickled herring.

I don’t eat pickled fish but many in Sweden do. It’s often eaten during holidays but lots eat it more often. I don’t get how anyone willingly put this in their mouths. It’s raw fish in vinegar. It tastes like………fish in vinegar. The fish texture and vinegar taste are sickening. The texture is soft and hard almost like pickled mushrooms. I’ve intended to learn to like them on many occasions but I can’t even have a small bite. My mom said I used to like them but I can’t believe I did.

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