Fish fingers

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I know this is a first world problem!

I made fish fingers for dinner today and the box it came in got me thinking. First of all it had 15 fish fingers in it. Our familj consist of an even amount of members. That means someone will get one fish finger less at one dinner. That was me. I only got three pieces of fish because I’m like that. I rather have me missing out than anyone else.

The second thought I had while making dinner was this. It said on the fish finger box the fish consisted of 100 % fish. I know they meant there wasn’t added artificial things to the fish but think about it. You buy fish because you want fish. If I wanted pork I would have bought pork. Important thoughts I know.

Vitamins

I try to eat healthy. I do but I take vitamins everyday. I think you can eat healthy but still not get enough nutrients. Like it often says on the vitamin “can” you shouldn’t replace a healthy diet with vitamins. I don’t know why they put that on it. We know we have to eat! Anyway it’s hard to get every vitamin with food.

There are vitamins and vitamins. Always make sure you know the content of the vitamins you buy. One type of vitamin that’s hard to know which one to buy are the hair and skin ones. I have struggled with hair loss and acne a lot and I’ve tried more vitamins for that than I want to think about. My acne eventually healed with prescription medicine but my hair loss is harder to battle. Vitamins are almost the only option and it’s hard to find the right ones. I’ve tried almost every vitamin available but I have never felt like they’ve helped. That’s until I began taking silicon tablettes. I take two hair and skin supplements but the silicon tablettes made me loose less hair. There are not many multi vitamins that contain silicon and I have to buy them separate. All of you suffering from hair loss try that vitamin. I know they might not suit everone but it’s worth trying.

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“Kisel” silicon in swedish.

I know the picture makes you sea sick with the can laying on the side.

Hairdresser

I made a drop in appointment in a hair salon a while ago. I often cut my hair myself but I wanted a professional hairdresser to do it that time. Before this haircut I had a professional hairdresser cut my hair too but she left my hair uneven and I didn’t know how to sort it out myself. For this haircut in question I went in to a salon I didn’t know anything about and asked if they could give me a hair cut then and there. They could and I sat down in the hair cut “chair”. I first only wanted them to give me a bang. I love having bangs because it makes the hair look better without you doing anything. When I talked to the hairdresser about the haircut I felt like cutting my while hair and asked if she had the time to do it. The hairdresser said she didn’t but a colleague of her could.

My hairdresser swept in like she thought she was the queen. She began  strangling me with the hair cut “cape” they use to protect your clothes. I could hardly breath. I didn’t say anything about it because I was happy she could give me a haircut. I had barely got used to the cape when the hairdresser without warning began spraying my hair with something. Or should I say rather drowning my hair with something. I got it everywhere and my eyes felt like someone had put them on fire. I also got some gel in my hair. I said my scalp is sensitive and asked if she could be careful. The hairdresser said something like she wasn’t careful and she took out the round brush. Not the round brush! They use that for the thing I can’t take, the blow dry. I haven’t told you I had washed ny hair before this and the hairdresser had to dry my hair. She began hurting my head with the brush and blowdryer. I wanted to cry because it was that bad.

When she had damaged my scalp with the blowdryer she began damage it with the scissor(s?). I don’t know how but even the haircut was painful. She cut my hair for a long time and I knew I shouldn’t have set my foot in the salon. I have thick hair and if you cut big layers in it it doesn’t come out nice. She cut big layers in the hair. And she cut it uneven. And it wasn’t cheap. I payed for nothing. My hair has two hair styles now. One short one long.

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This has got nothing to do with it. I couldn’t find a better hairdresser image.

Better

It’s a long time since I was here. The reason is a complete breakdown. I felt for a while how my depression got deeper. I tried to get better myself but nothing made me feel happy. Then I literary crashed. I felt weak and lost hope for everything. I wanted to lock myself in a room and never come out. If you’ve never had a depression it’s hard to know the feeling but I felt that nothing made sense.

I thought I was over those depression episodes but I wasn’t. Even if you’re on a medication you can get ill whenever you’re least expect it. I feel better now however I have to think about what I do. I can’t do everything at once. That’s what got me this ill. You have to think about what’s best for you not those around you. I only do a short post today.

 

 

Fish

I love fish however I don’t eat it often. You almost have to have sauce with fish. Fish itself doesn’t taste that good it’s the sauce that does everything. It’s the sauce that keeps me from making fish dinners. I don’t know how to make fish sauce. There are ready made ones but I don’t enjoy them. I’ve tried to do make sauces but didn’t succeed.

In Sweden we have fish bolls. That’s what we call them! It’s minced fish shaped into balls. I don’t know what else you could call them. Fish balls doesn’t sound better. Anyway I feel satisfied with naming them fish bolls.

Swedish fish bolls come in tins with different sauces. The sauces are delicious. I couldn’t make them better myself. I don’t know if you can get them anywhere else than here but if you can try them. Today we had fish bolls in lobster sauce. I cook them in the oven. I put them and butter in a oven safe baking dish. I like to serve oven baked potatoes with the fish. I slice the potatoes and mix them with butter, salt and pepper in a separate baking dish. I added sugar pea snaps to the fish. I cook it all in the oven. 200 C 30 minutes.

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Eggs

Quick little dinner idea.

I love scrambled eggs. I make it often. My favorite scrambled eggs are mixed with tomatoes. I cut the tomatoes and fry them in butter for a while. I add the eggs and stir until it gets scrambled.

I often also serve the scrambled eggs with butter fried rye bread.

It doesn’t look tasty however it is delicious.

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Bread

I know most countries have national food. Something that tells you about the “basics” in what that country prefers when it comes to food. That is often a variety of food but there usually is something that most consider the best representation for their country. In Sweden the most typical dish is  smörgåsbord or smorgasbord. A table full of lots of food. Everything from meatballs to pickled herring. We often eat this on holidays but there’s nothing stopping us from doing it whenever we want.

In Sweden we like to put our favorite smorgasbord dishes on bread. It’s a sandwich cake. It’s mayonaise filling between thin bread slices. The filling often consists of (of course) mayonaise and ham or seafood. This sandwich cake we had today was a ham cake. There were prawns as well but just on the first layer.

I have planned to make a sandwich cake but it’s a bit much to do. There are ready made bread but all the filling and layers to fill is nothing I want to do. I would have to buy more mayonaise than I ever have. I would have gone crazy making the cake.

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Subway

This is not sponsored.

Review of Subway and their tuna sandwich.

Almost everyone knows what Subway is. For you that don’t it’s a restaurant that focuses on sandwiches, or subs. They have a number of sandwiches to choose from. They make the sandwiches for order.

I liked their tuna sandwich. I had it when I went there yesterday. It contains of (of course) tuna and the veggies and sauce you want. I added cheese to it as well. The veggies I picked was tomatoes, salad and onions. I thought mayo would complement the tuna and it did. It was yummy.

I like that Subway has two sizes of their sandwiches. The smaller ones are often fulfilling but if you’re hungry there’s a bigger sandwich.

 

 

 

Crying

I feel more depressed than I have in a while. I have felt more and more stressed. I’ve had lots to do. I know my depression gets hysterical when I don’t get to calm down. I have a rule I normally don’t overstep. I try to not have more to do than I remember without writing it down. A “bit” confusing explanation.

I mean I never plan more than I remember without using a planner. A more confusing explanation but you know what I mean. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted lots to do. When I’ve been stressed for a long while I get light headed. I get that feeling I want to cry. The medicines I have make me not able to cry but I feel the sadness. If I would try to explain my depression and stress I would compare it to the feeling you get before you cry.

I haven’t had to use a planner to remember what to do but I’ve had more to do than I want to. I’ve had to cancel many projects ahead cause I don’t want to crash into a full blown depression. Nothing beats feeling the best possible. Nothing. No one can do everything.

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Candy. The best stress release.

 

 

Bio oil

I think you often forget to take care of your body when it comes to skincare. You put body lotion on your legs and arms and that’s about that. I never cared more than that about the skin on my body when I was younger. I never used a good quality body lotion.

Many years ago I was on an anti depressant that made me put on one more me. I have never been over weight before but then I put on a massive amount of weight. I ate normal portions but the weight kept adding on. I decided to not take the medicine anymore. The weight vanished immediately. With that the skin on my body became saggy. I didn’t have hanging skin but it wasn’t firm. When I was bigger my skin was smooth and when I got to my normal size my skin aged. I knew I had to do more than use an average body lotion.

I began applying Bio oil before my body lotion. I put it all over my body. It’s not that greasy and the skin absorbs it quickly. I can’t tell you it has made the skin perfect but it looks better. I feel my upper body is firmer. You got to use the oil for a while to get the anti ageing benefits. I used it on my face years ago but I thought it was a bit oily. To me it fits my body better. I don’t give it top mark however it helps the skin.

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