Pasta

I know I’m addicted to carbs. I get carb cravings often. I could go without most food ingredients but not carbs. Pasta is my biggest addiction. On lazy days I eat just pasta to dinner. On more normal days I make some effort. Then I put some salt and pepper on the pasta.

Today I made pasta bolognese. I feel proud I made a whole dinner for once. I find bolognese sauce with minced beef wonderful. I don’t eat meat often however minced beef is my favorite kind of meat. I fried the minced beef with onions. I added cabbage and peppers. I added the vegetables cause I wanted more substance. I know that’s not what you normally put in a bolognese but I longed for these vegetables. After a while I added tomatoes, salt, pepper, cream and milk. I served it with my favorite pasta.

The dinner suggestion of the day pasta bolognese.

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It tasted lots better than it seems.

 

 

Waxing

Never wax anywhere near the face when people are about to visit. I made that mistake a while ago. I have waxed my face before. And I’ve used the same brand all the times I’ve waxed.

We were about to get a visit from a big group of friends. I thought my upper lip was more than hairy at the time. Waxing is the most effective method when it comes to eliminate hair. It takes the hair away and leaves you without it longer than most hair removal methods. I find that wax strips are better to use on the face cause they’re not as hard on the skin as warm wax is. Rather I used to find strips better until this hair removal.

I decided to wax just days before the visit. I’ve used wax strips before and didn’t get any bad skin reaction. I haven’t got a clue why I decided to do it then. I could have done it long before this but didn’t. I waxed like I always do but the hair didn’t come off.

I used strip after strip and nothing happened. My skin felt damaged but I kept waxing. After a while my skin felt like it was on fire. I had to leave it. No hair was removed and my skin was hurting.

The friends came and it wasn’t my best visit. I had tried to remove the face hair but there I was hairy and with burn marks. My skin was completely damaged. Hair removal isn’t anything you want to discuss at a dinner but I had to. I couldn’t pretend nothing was wrong when my skin was on fire.

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Baked asparagus

I love almost all vegetables. I think the best way to cook them is in the oven. You get the unbeatable taste. I feel you keep the nutrients more than when you use the stove. I’m not one that enjoys being stressed. Oven dinners are the best cause you often only have to put everything in a tin. It cooks “itself”. The stove craves more effort.

Asparagus is a versatile vegetable. It’s easy to cook. I don’t find raw asparagus tasty but cooked it’s almost my favorite vegetable. Bacon wrapped asparagus is one of the tastiest ways to cook this ingredient. This time I didn’t boil the asparagus in advance but I should. They take time to cook and the bacon gets cooked in no time. I couldn’t leave it in the oven long because I didn’t want the bacon to get burnt. It was more than tasty but it would have tasted delicious with a pre cooked asparagus.

I wrapped the asparagus with bacon. I put them in a oven tin. I also put french fries in the oven. French fries are perfect to this. I cooked it at 190 C for 30 minutes. Try it.

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Happy

I sometimes feel almost happy. Skincare makes me feel good. It’s not a cure to illnesses however it makes everything better. I’ve always loved to take care of myself and have spent more than I should on it. My mom is into skincare and I must have gotten it from her. I love to buy skin products. I spend a lot on it but I don’t care. It’s my money!

My favorite skincare products are face creams. I usually don’t buy the most expensive creams although I have from time to time. The more expensive face products are often not better than the normal priced creams.

There’s something I can’t help doing with skincare. I expect it to work at once. I don’t know how many creams I’ve decided didn’t do it for me after one use. Wrinkles take time to erase and only one time with a moisturiser doesn’t help. There’s no moisturiser that remove all wrinkles but it can smooth them out.

Many creams take a long time to do their job. I know that however I want them to work the second I put them on.

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Surrender

I have been depressed for a long time. At first I didn’t know I was depressed. I knew but cause I had felt sad for a long time my sadness had become a normal state of mind. I cried everyday and I felt trapped. Everything I had enjoyed doing I didn’t do anymore. I never laughed.

I knew about depression but because my normal state of sadness was…….normal I didn’t think about it that way. Someone had to tell me I was ill. Realizing how ill I was I broke down. I cried my eyes out. I surrendered and felt how helpless I was.

The hardest aspect of surrender was that the doctor I had said I couldn’t work. I don’t know if reporting sick is the right phrase but she wrote a note and she said I should give it to my boss. I often think about everyone else but me. I could take the depression but not that it would involve my co workers. I remember that day. I went to a co worker and told her. She helped me with everything.

I struggled a long time with the feeling I had let people down because I couldn’t work. Don’t be afraid to get help when you suffer from any illness. Often it is easier to admit to yourself how you feel than to everyone else. Put yourself first.

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Pickled herring

I think every country has “national” food that makes many wonder why they eat it. Food that the rest of the world wouldn’t eat even if they were paid to do it. For example I don’t get why some countries insists on eating haggis. I know that it comes from an era where you ate everything on animals but now a days it’s crazy. I don’t think it’s wrong to eat it but it’s not something I crave. Sweden has pickled herring.

I don’t eat pickled fish but many in Sweden do. It’s often eaten during holidays but lots eat it more often. I don’t get how anyone willingly put this in their mouths. It’s raw fish in vinegar. It tastes like………fish in vinegar. The fish texture and vinegar taste are sickening. The texture is soft and hard almost like pickled mushrooms. I’ve intended to learn to like them on many occasions but I can’t even have a small bite. My mom said I used to like them but I can’t believe I did.

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Vegan burger

I think I love everything that’s vegan. There are many vegan ready meals to choose from. That makes eating vegan no trouble at all. I always make vegan  casseroles and those kinds of food myself. Some things like vegan hamburgers I have to buy cause I don’t know how to create a tasty burger. Haha I used vegan in every line!

I have found a yummy green burger. It’s a green kale burger. Green kale is healthy and that feels good when you include it in a meal. I think they taste better than meat burgers. For all of you that want to eat more vegan or vegans that don’t know what to eat sometimes buy green burgers. There are burgers for everyone.

I served this kale burger with potato gratin. I sliced potatoes and mixed them with cream and milk. I didn’t have plant based cream and milk and used normal cows things. I would have cooked with vegan milk if I had it. I baked the gratin and the burgers in the oven. 200 C 30 minutes. Yummy.

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Better

I haven’t traveled or anything like that. That’s not why I’ve been absent. I want to tell you there’s been a crazy time. Instead I’ve had every flu that’s out there. I fell sick and when I though I was through with it I got sick again. I am the happiest when I do nothing however this was more than nothing. I couldn’t do anything.

I do a little post this time. I have to tell you I ate more candy than normal during this. I know sugar isn’t a flu cure but it helps. We currently have these candy bags and they’ll help me getting well.

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There’s honestly one more bag somewhere. You can’t have enough sugary goodies.

Safety

I love all animals. I feel safe with animals. They want you for you and don’t have hidden motives. They trust you and they do everything to make you feel good. I don’t know what I would do without Kajsa. I used to have no strength and cried all day. Now I have Kajsa. I have to think of her and put her first. I think whatever animal you have they’re the best cure for any illness. I would have a deeper depression if I didn’t have Kajsa.

I was diagnosed with depression a long time ago. I couldn’t work or do anything then. I survived cause I was dogsitting a dog when her family wanted me to. I loved that dog. She felt like my dog because I had her often. She was there and didn’t mind if I was sad. Kajsa is wilder than the “rescue” dog however I love her.

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Away

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I don’t know how time can fly that fast. I thought I would have a little blog break but it lasted a long while.

I had to do nothing for a while. My depression was getting crazy. I knew it was bad when I all I wanted to do was cry. I’ve learned that if I’m not careful I can crash down the depression hole and it’s hard to get well. I’ve often ignored how I’ve felt and that made me unable to do anything cause I got sicker than ever. After having a depression this long I know I have to think about myself what I want. I think we all often think we have to be there for everyone but ourselves. With that out of the way I hope you’re doing wonderful.