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I think everyone has to have something that makes you feel good. It can be anything as long as you don’t hurt yourself or someone else. Especially when your suffer from any kind of illness. To me that is music.

I have always been singing. Singing, playing instruments, writing songs and performing. For a long time because of my illnesses I didn’t do anything that had to do with music. I wanted to however I didn’t allow myself to do anything funny. To me funny is all about music. A while ago I began singing karaoke online. I just did it. My voice was shaky because I hadn’t used it for such a long time. I couldn’t find the strength in my voice I used to have. I began singing everyday and I found myself both enjoying and allowing myself to have fun. Now I take singing lessons and I love it. To many think I’m too old to do it but I don’t care. It’s my life and I decide what I do.

I want to begin playing the guitar again. But because there are many karaoke sites online I don’t have to play myself. I don’t mean I’ll never play the guitar again but for now online music is what makes me wanna sing.

I’m on the site “Smule”.

Rest

I had to have a mental rest. My anxiety and depression have made me tired and I had to do nothing. That’s the only thing that helps for me. I have to clear my head when I feel that way. I’m that person that heal when I do nothing.

A side to me you don’t know about is that music is my thing. I’ve had music in my life all my life. I sing and write songs. All my life isn’t correct. I had many years where I was too depressed to play and write songs. I somehow denied myself from having anything to do with music.

Now I’m finding my way back to doing things I love. I’ve bought new instruments to mark kind of a new beginning. My old instruments reminds me of how I’ve felt in the past. You could think music instruments are only things but not to me.

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Kajsa gets relaxed when I sing.

My favorite music genre is rock music. I love it. I listen to a lot of music genres but rock is what I love.