Weight

27/04/201727/04/20171 Comment

I`ve lost lots of weight. I don`t mean that in a good way. I`ve been taking less and less of the anti depressant medicine and it shows. I lost my appetite early and it`s gone now. I have to force myself to eat which isn`t easy. Don`t get angry at me all you that are trying to loose weight. I hate being this thin.

I`ve begun eating snacks in the middle of the night. I have an appetite then and snacks are the easiest way to fill me up. It`s crazy but I`m happy I eat something. I get up in my underwear and eat everything that`s unhealthy. Not only snacks, cakes are fine too. I sit in the dark and stuff myself. I have done that sometimes before but now I do it every night.

Today I made a weight gainer dinner. Lots of pasta, butter and cream. I have to get calories where I can and that dinner was filled with it.

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I boiled fresh pasta and onion. I boiled the onion because I wanted it to be soft and not crunchy. The taste doesn`t disappear in the water but it gets milder.

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After the pasta was done I put it in the pan again. I added LOTS of butter. I also added tinned tomatoes and LOTS of cream. The whole thing cooked for a while.

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Delicious.

Take

25/04/20171 Comment

I think everyone has had energy thiefs in their lives. These thiefs take all your energy whenever they’re around.

If you have these people around you, get rid of them! Haha don’t poison them but get as far away from them as you can. It’s easy to say, some you are stuck with. I used to work at a place where K came along after a while. She was one of the worst people I’ve ever met. Not long after she began working she made these rules on what you should think and do. She was insane. Back then I never spoke up and said how I felt which made me too afraid to tell her how crazy she was. Not only that but because I was too timid she used to be mean to me. Today I would have said something. Now I don’t work there anymore but she was a energy thief that made me exhausted.

Sometimes you don’t realize you have a thief near by. Family can hide a lot of energy stealers. You often give family (and friends) the benefit of a doubt and don’t feel the stealing going on. I have relatives that could be the heads of the energy thiefs association. They invade every place they visit with their attitude of that they’re right. I made a decision a long time ago that I would avoid these people and I have. Not all the time but at lots of family gatherings. No energy thieves!

She gives me energy.

Laugh

22/04/2017Leave a comment

I’ve had a wonderful week. Not. I’m cutting down on an anti depressant medicine because I will stop take it. I will try another one but you have to stop taking the one you’re on before you can do it. I’ve stopped taking other medicines before but this is the worst one. This week I’ve had every disease there is because of this cutting down process! I’ve had everything from a cold to a fever and haven’t been able to do anything.

Other than that I’ve had a cold for two months. I am tired! I think my forever cold is because my thyroid isn’t working. I used to take medicines because of a my “broken” thyroid but I stopped taking them. Big mistake! You usually have to take thyroid medicine for the rest of your life.

Yesterday I “dropped in”to a doctors office because of my cold. You can drop in if you have a lighter disease you want help with. My cold was too light for them and I booked an appoinment with a doctor later. They will do not only a “cold exam” but also a thyroid exam. Hilarious times at the moment.

The positive side to this is that my candy obsession is gone.

Cutest

22/04/2017Leave a comment

-Kajsa you are cute.

-I am and I relax this way.

Flower

16/04/201716/04/20172 Comments

That easter flower seems hungover.

“What happened last night at the party? I’ll never drink that much water again”.

Candy ban

16/04/2017Leave a comment

I haven’t eaten candy in almost a week! I want to say it’s because I have a strong will but it’s not. I’m changing anti depressant medicine and when you do that you have to stop the one you’re taking. I’m cutting down on the one I’ve been taking for many years. This is the hardest medicine I’ve ever stopped taking. I have flu symtoms and no appetite. That’s the reason I haven’t eaten candy. Good times you think but not for me. I have trouble keeping my weight and loose a lot if I don’t eat.

I have to eat even though I’m not hungry now. I have a good appetite usually but not now. I know many of you don’t think I should complain. “I want to loose weight and would be excited if I wasn’t hungry.”

I’ve always fought to keep my weight and to be too thin is hard. When I meet doctors for the first time they ask if I eat. It feels rude to me. I eat more than I should but can’t put weight on! Now I have no appetite and I’m probably loosing weight right now. The candy I don’t want but food I need. Well.

Potatoe omelette

12/04/20171 Comment

I love omelettes. The dinner idea of the day is potatoe omelette.

I often think a plain omelette doesn’t fill you up. Put lots of things in it and it will. This omelette has potatoes, peppers, broccoli and bacon in it. Broccoli is a healthy vegetable and I try to make something with it often. It is good in omelettes and with the salty bacon it’s delicious!

I cut the potatoe in thin slices. I fry it for a while before I put the rest of the filling ingredients in. When it has been cooked for a while I put the eggs in.

Furcut

12/04/201712/04/2017Leave a comment

Before mom cut half her fur.

After mom cut half her fur.

Dirty

10/04/201710/04/20174 Comments

I love staying in hotels. It’s the best vacation to not have to do anything but just be. Although……….

I watched an english show where a comedian told how dirty hotel rooms were. She took her own pillow and duvet with her because she didn’t want to sleep in the things the hotels had. I know what she means. It’s disgusting to think about what goes on in hotel beds! I try not to think about it but when you find a dark curly hair in the bed it’s hard not to. I would never buy a used bed and a hotel beds are used to say the least.

She also said the remote control is the dirtiest thing in hotels. Yuck! Haha I won’t say what she said about it but it had to do with men staying alone and what they did while they were there. Disgusting!

I used to clean hotel rooms for a while when I was a university student. You never knew what you would find when you opened the door to the room you were cleaning. The beds were often full of things that shouldn’t be there. I remember one time another cleaner found a room full of blood. I don’t know what had happened but it couldn’t be enjoyable to clean it.