Weight

I struggle with my weight. You know that I have compared myself to a sausage because we are stuffed under our skin ready to burst. I don’t know however I feel that some of the fat on my body has turned into muscles. I exercise too much I know that. I have days where I don’t train at all but it’s hard. I want to exercise every day but it’s not healthy. I have to force myself to have exercise free days. I want to loose weight and too much exercise I think makes more harm than good. When you exercise everyday your body never gets to build muscles and burn fat. I have also told you that I can hardly get my jeans on because of all the fat. I think it also has to do with that I’ve gained muscles. I want bigger legs and arms and my legs are bigger. I think both the fat and my new muscles has something to do with me not getting my jeans on.

I can’t get rid of the pregnant looking belly.

The thing I should try harder with is food. I can’t go on a diet because then I’m hungry all the time. I know there are diets where you don’t feel hungry but they are complicated and you have to change everything you eat. For example I can’t go without carbs. Everywhere you look carbs is the cause of weight gain and lots more. When I don’t eat carbs I get physically sick. I have to eat something from every food “group” everyday. I try to eat less but then I’m hungry and I eat unhealthy. I don’t eat candy but I haven’t seen that helping with the weight. I will continue with not eating candy though because I feel better without it.

Swedish pancakes with jam and whipped cream. Very “good” when you want to loose weight.

I try and that’s all you can do. My belly is where almost all the fat gather. I have well trained legs and arms and then this chunk of fat on my belly. I do abs exercises everytime I exercise and I think the belly is getting stronger. I’m frustrated because I want the belly to shrink faster than it does. I will keep up with the abs exercise until I see some change.

Exercising

I am doing all I can to get rid of my enormous belly. I know many of you probably think that my belly isn’t big but to me it is. When I was younger I never did any ab workouts because there was nothing to work on. Now I’ve been doing ab workouts with every arm and leg workout however I am not seeing that much of a change. I mean I’m doing a very extensive ab workout to get every part of my belly exercised. It’s lower and upper abs and more. I do an 17 minutes ab workout. I should have gotten further than I am.

The plank. Works your abs really hard.
This top hides my belly.
The jeans wants to break in every seem.

I feel my jeans going on a little smoother though. I know my legs have gotten bigger because of my exercise and that has something to do with my jeans getting too small. Before I had to pull them hard to get them on. I was afraid they would fall a part with every pull because I had to use all my strength to get them on. Even now I pull hard to get my jeans on but it doesn’t take that long anymore. It’s not a big change but I could have lost belly fat even though I don’t see any change. I compare my jeans to sausage “skin”. They are filled to the absolute max. I’m waiting for the day they won’t fit anymore. I have written this before and the fear of my jeans breaking when I’m in public isn’t gone. I’m happy every time I get home without any “breaking” incident happening. I have more jeans but they’re small too. Time to buy bigger I think.

The biggest change I’ve done when it comes to eating to loose weight is that I’ve stopped eating candy. I told you about it in “Sugar ban” where I wrote what I’ve done to ban candy from my life. It’s hard to do and I wrote that to possible help someone to also stop. I thought I never could do it but I did. I often ate candy to have something to do. I haven’t even touched any candy for a long time! I had to stop eating candy because it affected me and my body more than I thought it ever could. I’m not saying I will never eat candy again however now I’m not craving candy in any way.

These were my favorite things to buy.

From me and my jeans, we stay together until they break!

Workout

I think every workout addict out there find that non workout days are unbearable. I could workout everyday but I know it does more harm than good. When I don’t exercise my mental health gets crazy. I get sad and stressed and have this feeling of discomfort. I feel that my muscles will disappear on the days when I don’t do some kind of workout. If you’re a workout addict you know what I mean.

The funny thing is that I’ve read that on the days you don’t exercise is when you build muscles. I think it has something to do with that workout “breaks down” your muscles. When you take a day off they “heal” and your muscles grow. I try to think about that but it’s hard to not workout.

There’s nothing better than to exercise until you get shaky and the muscles are sore. I love being sore also the next day cause then I know I’ve done something that strengthens my body. I have to plan those workout free days. I usually plan something else to do. When I don’t have nothing else to do I often train even though I had decided not to. I can’t help myself.

Just a heads up. These pictures were taken after a hard workout session. That’s why I look sweaty. I know I should do a spray tan because I’m whiter than white.

This is my hair washed and fresh. On the rest of the pictures it looks sweaty.

You might want to pull your hair out of frustration when you don’t workout.
Instead if you can’t be without any kind of exercise do a full body stretch. It’s workout but a healthy workout.
The most effective stretch after upper body workouts.

Slimming

I am addicted to exercise. I’m addicted to train everything but my abs. I think I have never felt stronger than now but my abs……….They’re a disgrace. I have felt my belly getting bigger but I thought it was muscles. I have never prioritize the abs. I have thought they got enough exercise while I was training the rest of my body. When I gain weight it’s only my belly that gets bigger. I’ve had a slim belly for a long time now but now it’s getting crazy. I eat a lot but I have never had a problem with that before. Every part except my belly can take lots of food and not show any signs of putting on weight.

Happy to have done my workout thinking all of me got trained.

I must do abs exercises with every workout from now on. I find I’m feeling better when I weigh a little more than I should but I don’t want a belly that’s too big. I could eat less but my body craves lots of food especially when I’m exercising this hard (except my belly then). I took pictures today and I’ll give you a warning they’re not pretty. My belly is big and it’s hanging both in the front and on the sides. I took the pictures to compare them with my belly when I’ve done ab exercises.

I want to feel this happy with every part of my body.

I’ve had troubles with putting my socks on and that shows how much my belly is in the way. I can’t help but wonder how my belly can get fat when the rest of my body gets muscles. I thought I was slim but I’m not. I feel bad showing you my belly but I want you to know how it looks now and when I’ve done some training. I’m ashamed.

Addicted

I do not drink alcohol or smoke however I’m addicted to one thing. Exercise. That’s my addiction. I actually don’t think you can call something healthy an addiction but If you do it too much it is.

I have to force myself to not over exercise. I could do it for hours everyday but I struggle to do it at a healthy “rate”. I do it normally for an hour a day. Three or four days in a row and then I have an exercise free day. I workout to videos on Youtube. There are an endless amount of videos and it’s great to have lots to choose from. Exercise can never replace anxiety and depression medicins but it helps. If I didn’t workout I couldn’t stand all the pain I feel i side. My anxiety gets better for a little while when I’ve had exercised and that means everything to me. When your body is drained of all energi after a workout the anxiety gets lower. It’s not for long however everything counts when it comes to feeling better.

I much rather workout at home than in a gym. At a gym there are often too many people. All the workout equipments are occupied and it takes a long time to exercise cause you have to wait for dumbbells anmachines. I think exercising could help many with mental illness. I know how hard it can be to get going in the beginning to exercise but once you have tried you will feel how you get stronger both physically and mentally.

Yay I did it.

Stretching

Protein salads

There’s no protein in lettuce……..I think. It contains lots of water. And a calming substance. I heard that long ago but I don’t know if I get calmer from salads. The protein in this salad comes from eggs and bacon. Eggs contain protein (we all know that) and are wonderful in salads.

Usually eggs in salads are boiled but I fried mine. I fried the bacon first and then the egg in the bacon fat. Very healthy! Unhealthy but tasty. These are my favorite proteins to add to salads. I exercise often and have to eat balanced. Protein is important because it both fills you up and builds muscles.

The salad also contained lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, peppers, olives and red onions. I made a dressing from olive oil and applecider vinegar. Tasty!

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Workout

Kajsa is keeping mom company. After we have gone running I do strenght workout at home and she is there beside me.

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She loves to run. It’s a bit hot outside and we can’t run the long winter runs but shorter distances. I wouldn’t run like I do if I didn’t have a run crazy dog. I often feel depressed and tired which makes me want to do nothing. Because Kajsa has to run I do it too. I love seeing her happy eyes when we are out. We have been running from the time Kajsa was old enough to run. She is a wonderful breed and parson jack russells are for those who like to exercise.

 

 

Walk

I`ve found a good way to exercise. Walking. I can`t run because of my cold that never stops. If I run my throat get sore and it`s not worth it. Walking is perfect. I walk fast and almost keep the speed I do when I run. It`s perfect for clearing your mind too. I get to think about things.

Kajsa loves it. She gets to smell things more when we walk. She gets tired even if we don`t run. I usually stop along the way and sit down with her. We sit and experience being there and then. To do nothing but only be is good for your mind. Kajsa needs to slow down and this is a good way to relax.

 

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Fluffy fur I know.

 

I want to run again but I don`t know when that will be. I feel healthy from time to time but when I run I get sick. It`s better to walk than not exercise at all.

 

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Those socks!

 

Crazier

Kajsa loves to run. Me too. We haven’t gone running for a while and Kajsa has gone crazy because of that. Or I write for a “while” but it’s only been a few days. She would run everyday if she could and she would love it. I can’t run everyday and if we take it easy for more than one day she gets hysterical. She has all this energy that has to be let out. When we then do run she can’t go fast enough.

I often don’t want to run before I do it. It takes all my energy just to get out the door. After I have run though I feel good. Kajsa is what keeps me running. I know she loves and needs it and I do it for her. She is a lovely running buddy and couldn’t be more excited when she gets her harness on.

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After every run she gets into a pillow fight and the pillows fly everywhere.

Chocolate thing

I think this protein obsession that`s all over the place at the moment is crazy. Every where there is some advice that you should eat more of it. Manufacturers know that protein is big business and they want to cash in. Now there are protein in almost all kinds of food. Most people don`t need all this protein that`s out there. Commercials makes us believe that we can`t have enough of it. There should be protein involved in all we eat.

I know I have fallen for protein drinks. After exercise I drink them. I could just make a sandwich but it`s easier to mix powder with milk. The sandwich would probably do a better job with my recovery but I`m sticking to my powder. I have found a product I do buy from time to time. I don`t eat it after exercise I eat it as a snack. Many protein products are disgusting but this is tasty. It`s a chocolate flavoured protein pudding. I eat it when I`m hungry and need something more than just a sandwich. I make it unhealthy though cause I eat it with double cream.

I think it would be great after exercise though. If you don`t like protein drinks you should try it. It has a great taste and it`s easy to eat. It even comes with a spoon.