Pasta

I find that the one thing that affect my depression more than anything else is cooking. I don’t have an appetite and get stressed when it’s time to cook. All I want to do is cry when I go to the kitchen to make dinner. I get stressed when there’s too many steps to make a dish or that it takes too long make it. I try to do things that are fast and easy.

I know there are those that find cooking relaxing. I’m jealous of you. When you say cooking calms you down I want to be that way. I wish I could say that too. To me it’s just a pain. The hardest part is to figure out what to cook. I have lived on my own sometimes and I’m not proud to say my cooking routine has been a disgrace then. There have been times where I’ve eaten candy or cake for dinner. Disgusting I know. But If you’re not hungry and you’re depressed enough to just want to cry your eyes out cooking, eating healthy is not important.

All the cooking I do and post here is the easiest possible. I could make food that would impress you but that would be too hard for me. The funny thing about it is that I’m a good cook. I often get positive feedback when I cook. I don’t know how it’s possible. It must be that I love food (even though I’m not hungry) and cook what I enjoy to eat.

With all this in mind I’ve decided to grade all the food I upload in a “stress inducing” scale. I know it’s not just me that find cooking hard and this may help you to cook “stress free” things. Number 1 is the lowest stress inducing and 5 the highest. I will name it stress scale.

My first stress scale dinner is a number 1 boarding on number 2. It’s the easiest pasta dish you can make. Fill a saucepan with water. Put the pasta in the cold water. When the water begin to heat up the pasta also begin cooking. It saves a lot of time. When the pasta is ready you drain the water. Put the pasta back in the saucepan. Add butter, tinned crushed tomatoes, milk, cream and spices. Let it cook for a while. That’s it! It’s fast and tasty. Serve with vegetables or what I have on the plate fruit. It’s good to have some vitamins with dinner.

It tastes better than it looks.

Ribs

I have somehow began to feel bad when I eat meat. I think about the poor animals cause in Sweden they have revealed how disgusting some farmers and slaughter houses are treating them. If the animals had a wonderful life and was slaughtered with “respect” I wouldn’t feel this way. My sympathy towards animals has always been very big and I love them. Especially since I had to put Kajsa, my dog, down I cry when animals are treated bad. It makes me miss Kajsa more than I ever thought I would.I don’t even think meat is that tasty but I eat it sometimes.

Some times you don’t want to cook. I never want to cook but when I can’t stand cooking I buy ready made things. Today was a “can’t stand cooking” day. I had ribs you buy barbequed. I served them with kiwi fruits, mimosa sallad (tinned fruit cocktail mixed with mayonaise) and potato salad. Ribs are meat I think is tasty cause the spices make it doesn’t taste that “meaty”.

Eggs

I make sure I have eggs at home. You can make lots of dishes with eggs. Not only lots of dishes but also it’s great for those times you don’t feel like cooking something complicated. Or when you don’t feel like cooking at all you can still make a tasty meal in minutes.

Today I had a “I don’t want to cook” day. Because of that I made scrambled eggs with tomatoes. Tomatoes give scrambled eggs more tasty. I begin to fry the tomatoes. After a while I add the eggs. It took a couple of minutes. I don’t like raw vegetables and served the scrambled eggs with kiwi fruit and apple. I like to eat eggs with “crisp bread” and I served that with the eggs.

Candy

I know I have to stop to eat candy. Or I don’t eat when it comes to candy I gorge. I didn’t know there was an english word for it. Gorge is what I do. If I’m hungry or feel whatever feeling out there I eat candy. Some can take one piece and they’re happy with that. I often eat ’til I feel sick. I don’ t have an eating problem and I don’t feel bad when I have had a bag of candy but I know it’s not good to stuff your self with sugar.

I often go for the most sugar filled candy. The candy that consist of 99 % sugar and 1 % of things I don’t want to know what they are. Most buy one bag of candy and eat everything before they get another bag. I buy bag after bag of candy to not run out of it. Every bag weighs around 1 kilo. I go though lots of bags. I don’t want to think about how much sugar that is. I wonder what would happen if I suddenly stopped eating candy. I would probably loose all energy.

Sugar

The pick and mix department in the grocery store is my favorite place in the store. I could stay there a long time to “compose” the perfect bag of candy. The more sugar the candy seem to have in it it’s what I put in the bag. I often think I’ve put more than enough in the bag but I don’t care.

Filled bags

Smoking ban

I love all bread. I crave bread. I don’t know what kind of bread’s that are popular in your country. In Sweden ” Åkes (male name) hönökaka” is popular. It’s a flat soft bread.

I hadn’t bought it in a while and when I bought it recently I saw a funny thing on the package. There is a picture of “Åke” on it. I’m sure that he smoked a pipe before. Now he doesn’t. There’s a smoking ban everywhere. Now a smoking ban even on bread packages. I like that you can’t smoke everywhere but on bread…… I know why Åke has quit smoking. Smoking is bad and that could make you think the bread is bad.

I don’t think anyone has thought about “Åke’s” not smoking anymore. I don’t know why they removed the pipe. I don’t think anyone making a “Åke” sandwich saw the pipe and thought they wan’t to smoke. I have never made a sandwich and suddenly had a craving for pipes.

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Vegan hamburger

Today’s dinner: vegan hamburger.

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Most vegan burgers are frozen and already cooked. They are delicious. This hamburger however was frozen but raw. It was bigger than most vegan burgers.

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I cooked it the way I cook raw meat burgers, in a frying pan. I seasoned it with salt and pepper.

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The burgers tasted like sausages. We didn’t have much vegetables. We had onions and tomatoes and used that. We also added ketchup, mustard and hamburger dressing to the burgers.

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Prawn bomb

I don’t know why take away food tastes better than food you make. I’ve never figured out how to make pizza. I’ve made it myself but it never tastes as the ones you buy from pizza restaurants. That’s one example. I would never try to make indian food.

In Sweden sandwich cakes are one of our favourite take away food. It’s layers of bread with different fillings. The base is mayonaise and you can mix it with whatever you want. Today we had a “prawn bomb”. To no ones surprise it’s a sandwich cake filled with prawns. It’s the best take away sandwich cake.

I would never try to make a prawn bomb myself one more time because in a moment of bravery I did. It seems easy but it’s not. You think all you have to do is put mayonaise and prawns on bread. I tried to make it but it came out a mess. It became a disgusting pile of soggy bread and runny mayonaise. There were crawfish everywhere.

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Fish fingers

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I know this is a first world problem!

I made fish fingers for dinner today and the box it came in got me thinking. First of all it had 15 fish fingers in it. Our familj consist of an even amount of members. That means someone will get one fish finger less at one dinner. That was me. I only got three pieces of fish because I’m like that. I rather have me missing out than anyone else.

The second thought I had while making dinner was this. It said on the fish finger box the fish consisted of 100 % fish. I know they meant there wasn’t added artificial things to the fish but think about it. You buy fish because you want fish. If I wanted pork I would have bought pork. Important thoughts I know.

Fish

I love fish however I don’t eat it often. You almost have to have sauce with fish. Fish itself doesn’t taste that good it’s the sauce that does everything. It’s the sauce that keeps me from making fish dinners. I don’t know how to make fish sauce. There are ready made ones but I don’t enjoy them. I’ve tried to do make sauces but didn’t succeed.

In Sweden we have fish bolls. That’s what we call them! It’s minced fish shaped into balls. I don’t know what else you could call them. Fish balls doesn’t sound better. Anyway I feel satisfied with naming them fish bolls.

Swedish fish bolls come in tins with different sauces. The sauces are delicious. I couldn’t make them better myself. I don’t know if you can get them anywhere else than here but if you can try them. Today we had fish bolls in lobster sauce. I cook them in the oven. I put them and butter in a oven safe baking dish. I like to serve oven baked potatoes with the fish. I slice the potatoes and mix them with butter, salt and pepper in a separate baking dish. I added sugar pea snaps to the fish. I cook it all in the oven. 200 C 30 minutes.

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Eggs

Quick little dinner idea.

I love scrambled eggs. I make it often. My favorite scrambled eggs are mixed with tomatoes. I cut the tomatoes and fry them in butter for a while. I add the eggs and stir until it gets scrambled.

I often also serve the scrambled eggs with butter fried rye bread.

It doesn’t look tasty however it is delicious.

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